ive been pretty chill. downright tired the past day or so. but really..i should get more sleep. sunday i went to my middle sister's house to watch my nephew while he napped and she went to visit her step-daughter in the hospital. it was cool just being there with him. im the not-so-excited "auntie" and he wasnt so-excited either..but we got along. we laughed a little together and he sang a song or two from a Barney DVD - adorableness. it was great. he just sees me - for the person that i appear to him.. i give him juice and yes jelly beans. (he went potty and asked for some) .. lol oh yeah..he's 2 by the way - will be 3 next month. i looked at him and could only think that he is exactly what i wouldve looked like had the genes settled in right. after all.. according to my sister "he looks more like you than he does me!" funny...guess shes got EXTRA mixed feelings about that NOW.
i say that cause when we left her house that day (i dropped the nephy off with his dad) i left my big sister a note - coming out to her. id sufficiently talked myself out of having the conversation with her in person. i could just picture breaking down in front of her as she confusedly replied "what the f*ck?!" ...in an effort to not have to endure such..i wrote her. pretty simple too...straight to the point - just like i like it. gave her a link to the blog. told her to take her time with it and that was it. guess its a good thing i got to hang out with my nephy for a little bit before i gave her that. only God knows how she will react. *looks around for other shoe to drop*
so now both my sisters know what the deal is. id called the eldest (D) and asked if shed talked to the middle (E). i told D about the letter i had left asking if E had said anything to her about it. D said she hadnt but mentioned that she was glad id done that saying "now i can talk to her about it"... great. could be good. could be bad. i just wish they would talk to my mom.. LOL.. shes FULL SUPPORT might i remind you. *sigh*... waitin on that d*mn shoe....
changes:
.that feeling in my arms.. definately hair growing. my arms have hair creeping toward the inner side of my forearm. also i have a lot of newly visible folicles on the far outer side of my forearm.
.little man has grown some. i havent done measurements though. i dont know that im particularly interested in his measurements though... hrm...at least not until ive been on T for a good two years or so. just my preference. i dont think ill forget that it used to be almost non-existent - ok, ok.. just really small
.im a little impatient..and thats either due to the T or due to me having been tired the past day or two.
.i had a couple pimples..which is quite unlike me actually. ive never really broken out per se. like two pimples at once is a break out.. but i had four this week. my girl got me this mint julip mask stuff.. and i guess its working. 15 min at night and my face isnt so oily and feels clean. skins been extra oily - my girl even said something about it. so..ive just been washing my face a lot and putting that mask stuff on the "breakout" areas. its been two days and the pimples are almost gone.
been thinkin super hard about coming out at work. gonna do it.. just not sure when. timing is of the essence... ok not really.. im puttin it off. but ill get there soon enough. i just.. wanna keep my job ya know? d*mn at-will state.
im in pretty good spirits despite my short temper. *smile* havent done the youtube update... ill get to that. just hope i get to it before friday = shot day.
lates...
Raymond
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