it starts...

so before i was all.. 'i havent been extra horny or anything..just horny at inappropriate times'... *sigh* lets just say..its been a looong day. ive managed to feign productivity..at least.

less upset by extenuating circumstances. nervous about dinner with my sister..even though i dont know when we'll have time to get together. lol.. i still worry waaaay too much.

kickboxing the other day was phenomenal!!!! muay thai class with Tony Tuchi at X3 Sports..good stuff. he wouldnt let me spar since it was my first day, but he could tell i really wanted to. and i stayed the extra hour for jiu jitsu. that was cool too. today? im so sore...its great. the workout was extremely similar to what i had been doing when i was training in L.A. which is probably part of the reason i enjoyed it so much. and Tony has a sense of humor which is cool. while i was signing up as a member i asked dude signing me up "how liberal do you think your staff is?" he basically said that they werent a bunch of big macho jerks. i told him id asked because im transgender..transmasculine and plan on transitioning and just want to know if thats going to be a problem cause id hate to sign up for a year and not want to come back after 6 months. he said he didnt think it would be a problem. i probably couldve picked better words, but i was nervous and the point of the story is that i did it! i was proud of myself.

hrm.. writing that blog helped. ok.. i still havent done a youtube update. i suck, i know. ill get to it.. i hope. shot tomorrow..woohoo! i do wonder when the "excitement" of the shot will wear off.. if ever. i kinda hope it doesnt. lol

changes:
-still feeling the hair on my arms growing..which is weird but cool. had on shorts the other day and could feel that i also have new and longer leg hair. hard to notice cause im usually wearing jeans.
-im almost positive my urine odor has changed some. i dont have a problem with it, its just different. but i do generally remember to put the toilet seat down so i dont get yelled at for that anymore. :)
-little guys grown a little more since last i mentioned him. i dont like talking about him though so dont go hoping i mention him everytime i update this. lol
-ive been a bit distant. jack might say something about me spending lots of time in my "cave." and maybe that i need to hang out with my friends and get in some "guy time." distinct possibility. maybe i just need to go to a freakin meeting!!!! *sigh* (more on that later)
-still fighting off a mild breakout with the mint julip mask - but it works so im not worried.

thats pretty much it. oh the meeting stuff.. yeah.. i need to find a meeting that i really really like. so ill like..want to attend and pay attention and participate. ...*looks around*.. yeah. i need help.

ok.. i should be working... lates!

im in a really good mood right now.. can you tell?

*smile*

Ray