amazingness.. and a little luck

im doing very well thank you for asking. the past few days have been pretty wonderful and downright inspiring.

monday 7/14 i saw Jack. we talked and pretty much kicked it for the hour and at the end he asked me if i was pretty anxious to get hormones started. of course!!! so we go over letter writing. he actually gives us guys the option to write our own T letters which he then revises. this is awesome cause i get the opportunity to express my feelings a bit and save myself the letter-writing fee. ;) he also explains how he likes to meet with the person who will be most affected by the hormone therapy (my s/o) to go over any concerns and make sure they understand everything that is going on. i was on cloud 9 when i left his office that day.

wednesday 7/16 - i got to sit down at a table of three others mapping out and discussing plans to birth a ministry. the synergy in the room was absolutely amazing. just last week i did a one-day spiritual fast in order to gain insight on where i am supposed to be moving as far as my spiritual life is concerned. bingo. we shall certainly see. i might be planning a trip to San Francisco soon. the journey is never really over.

thursday 7/17 - ...today. this morning my girl (T) and i went to see Jack. the appointment was pretty amazing. she left the office talking about how great of a therapist ive found and how i should recommend him to other guys online. i told her that i actually got his name from one of the groups online. she insisted that i write and tell people that i did go see him and to mention how wonderful he is. i have to admit.. my talkdoc is a pretty great guy. and that appointment with all of us in there was nothing short of amazing. it was great to hear her verbalizing her love and support and to hear from Jack how great of a girl she is. i mean.. i already knew she was amazing but.. every time something new happens i just feel it all over again. im waaaay lucky. after we talk for longer than we had anticipated he signs my letter for hormone therapy.
relief - anticipation - happiness --- flow through me. im going to be able to be seen as a man. that is a wonderful thought and im sure it will be a wonderful feeling.

lol before i get T dropped off at work i get pulled over for speeding. yeah..we were running late and i was definitely speeding. i was excited and feeling really good about.. everything. 52 in a 35. the cop gets my license. i sit calmly, quietly.. upset at myself on the inside. the cop comes back 'im going to cut you a break - i reduced your speed to 48 in the 35 and am giving you a written warning' ... absolutely amazing. and in a county that doesnt hold back. im in awe.. and drive out of the county UNDER the speed limit. ...a guy i know has the same story after being told he'd get to start hrt soon... im sure he's laughin hard RIGHT now. lol

i feel... amazing.

Raymond