always something

im trying to get used to the fact that there will always be something for me to worry about. the hard part is to actually NOT worry.

new job starting in less than a week. im stoked STILL..very excited and ready to get to work. what am i worried about then? transition on the job. its possible, hell it has to happen..a lot. there are plenty of transfolks out there...i just wonder how many lose a job due to transitioning..and how i can keep from being one of them. i talked to Jack about it of course and he was thinking maybe i should wait six months to come out at work. since i wanted to start T next month i was thinking a little earlier. but its been decided to pretty much play this by ear and see what the company is like...and then make the call. wisely Jack said, if they dont seem at least glb friendly then they arent going to be transfriendly. true. like with all things we shall see.

talking to my s/o about it - she basically said that nothing should stop me from being me. and thats pretty much how i feel about it. i know she will support me whatever i decide. a lot of this though will be put on my faith. i got this job, right now for a reason.. and it will be good. i believe i will know what to do when faced with it, as we always do. of course then i'll have to DO that thing...when it comes...when it comes.

i may be about to embark on another opportunity of a lifetime concerning ministry. despite current loyalties to my church, things change. and sometimes when presented with an opportunity, youve got to take it. this may be the beginning of something wonderful. i know im being vague, but i dont know the extent of it yet but i will be sure to let you know when these things come to pass...as im sure i'll be very excited when they do.

this is whats goin on with me. very happy to be leaving the "temp" job ive had since january. and move on to something real. im just hoping to be there for longer than a little while. *smile*

ive GOT to write here more often.

Ray