yesterday was my 3 year anniversary. thats a lot of clean time.. for me anyway. i walked into.. ok.. i RAN into a meeting friday night. a speaker meetings.. and ended up telling my story. i hadnt done that in quite a while. it was good for me. needed even. made the stroke of midnight all the more sweeter as i reached the very day i went to my first AA meeting. i dont discriminate with fellowships, i mix them all in my daily life.. even though i try to respect them as separate since it seems so important to them all LoL. im not hard pressed.. i never had to put down the cocaine to have a drink.. i just did it all at once.. my recovery works in much the same way ;)
some very special people came to my celebration on saturday. events like that is how you know who has your back no matter what. no, thats not a blow to anyone that didnt come, just extra appreciation to the people who did. a guy thats like an uncle to me was there and hes not in the program. i just call him randomly and tell him about my special events and he shows up. i love it! i have dependable people in my life today. h-ll im still working on being dependable myself. LoL.. i know, i know.. im my own worst critic...
its Lent. ive never celebrated Lent before. its exciting and scary and all the emotions between. i have committment issues. not as far as my relationship is concerned per se. but as far as committing to other things.. i just end up half-ssing stuff at times.. or i just stop showing up. this will be 40 days of me NOT giving up. its like.. if i break Lent (fail - in my head) then what does that mean or what does that say about me .. and if i succeed what does that say mean going forward.. ? i know thats one of the points of Lent.. i guess its just .. lol.. ive never done it. thats all.
i dont think i elaborted on how wonderful my trip to NC was.. i dont think i have the words. i just know that when a person youve never met before can see and describe to you in detail what your annointing looks like.. then you better take some steps to live in it. this is what im trying to do. and in doing it i gotta bring ALL of me to the table. my authentic self. no leaving small parts of me outside in the rain.. or snow as it were.
Yes it snowed in Atlanta today, and it was lovely. Not sure what the school/work schedule will look like tomorrow.. but today we had fun playing in it.. Tee, D, and I.. along with a houseguest we have. We made snow queen.. aww geez.. ill edit this blog and post a pic as soon as i can. LoL.. its good stuff ;)
*edit* here's pictures of our snow queen! woohoo!
ok.. SLEEP.. its whats for dinner...
Raymond
2 comments:
Congrats on 3 years! It's a major landmark!
Hope all is well, and enjoy the snow! We drove by it on our way to/from Atlanta the other day. It looked fun.
Congratulations on your 3 year anniversary! That's huge! You're awesome!
Snow? Atlanta? Wha?
Ainsley
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