too far between

the blogs.. i mean. its been waaay too long. a lot going on really. work is generally hectic, but we make do. some important things have happened lately. important to me at least... ;)

- preached my second sermon. i think ill stop counting now. ;)
- by sunday i will have officially been on testosterone for 6 months - pretty sweet
- talked to HR at work last week. theyre going over a plan of action for my work transition - this means i still have a job... always a good thing.
- my sister called me Ray (at first i was like.. who said that? then i was like.. SWEET!)
- along the same vein.. my brother-in-law called me R.W.3. - my pastor calls me that. *big smile*
- my dad had been calling me by my birthname.. i finally asked him to call me Ray - he goes 'oh, ok' .. yeah so i made a much bigger deal about how that was gonna go in my head.. of course.

changes:
- im mostly sir'd over the phone these days - d-mn i love where my voice is going.
- im generally sir'd in person - and yes.. i know im a tad vain..but i also like the way that i look. even when i think i look bloated or bigger than i should.. i still like it. THATs new.
- ive begun breaking out again (face and a little on my back i think.. but i cant see it so... /shrug)
- my facial hair is trying its d-mnest to grow it.. lol. i dont mind waiting for it though.. which i find strange.. guess that leads me to my next point
- im super chill generally.. except maybe when im super h-rny.. but thats a whole other point
- sex drive.. yes. very...much.. wanting.. right. i had gotten used to what it felt like on the previous dose.. or thats what i keep telling myself. now-a-days on the new dose..it gets pretty.. sometimes its hard to deal with.. im readjusting. its a process i guess.

im going to L.A. in march. Tee bought me a ticket today. im stoked! i get to see my pa, i get to see my friends.. its gonna be rad. ..and i get to eat some of the best restaurant-food ive had in my life.. again. yeah baby! maybe its just me.. but Atlanta food aint got NOTHING on Los Angeles food.

i havent been working out.. been drivin myself mad with work. been piling on the responsibilities too.. and trying to do step work.. and just.. lol being overwhelmed generally. and NOT freaking out about ANY of it.. d-mn thats different than the way things used to be. when the world was continuously coming to an end.. and thus we grow.

this is right. this is me. and i love it.

havent vid'd in a while either.. our camera screen is broken and its just kind of a turn-off to use the thing. either ill get over it and record myself anyway.. or ill just wait til i get to L.A. and have one of my folks out there make a vid. we will see.

heres a pic at least... no, this isnt from the day i preached.. but it was taken in church...

i should be sleeping...

xx

Raymond