ive been out of it lately.. haha.. im sure thats evident from my last post. im feeling a little better.
finally got in touch with folks from the clinic who called me in a new prescription. dont worry i didnt miss any shots...lol but my dose got upped. and its funny too cause Tee looks at me the other day and says.. 'do you think the T stopped working.. not like stopped but like youve reached a plateau' and i hadnt thought about it much but i guess i kinda felt that way. lo and behold.. visit the doc, meds get changed. makes sense. we will see how things begin to go now.
work is good. i like my job. ..did i mention i like my job? i actually got an award at work today... for my "extra 212 degrees of effort" .. woot! suweeeet! and it came with a $100 Visa Gift card. right on time too cause... yeah... lol.
i spent like 45 minutes kickin it with the HR lady at work today.. i probably shouldve been working..but it turned out to be a really enlightening conversation. while bringing up a couple queries about the EEO form i found out a story about her working as a p.i. and finding out about a transwoman.. ... i cant explain it exactly, but anyway.. gave me the insight that would make for "coming out at work" WAY more comfortable that i thought it might be. at least the coming out to HR part. whew! and its pretty sweet timing too cause im going to talk to a friend of mine (who happens to be a lawyer) about the logistics of it all soon. ...sweet.
so i had my 22nd shot of testosterone today. it went well. i gotta get the right kind of syringes from the pharmacy i went to before.. the ones i got from publix.. not exactly what im used to. oh.. lol.. ok so i have to post about my 21st shot. just in case anyone reading this has had the same thought or comes to the point of having the same thought... dont do it. ok...syringe/needles from publix..not what im used to.. i go to use it anyway. give myself the shot and.. wait.. theres a lot more T left in the needle that usual.. what do i do? i re-stick myself to inject the rest.. LOL.. BAD IDEA. ok.. the moronic male thinking of mine goes i know the needle is dull now and this is probably gonna hurt like hell... but what will i feel like if i dont get the right dose.. at this point i know the fact that im an addict is starting to make things worse.. and yet i still... *sigh* the puncture hurt, it bled more than the first puncture (of course) and my leg was sore for like 2 days. ashamed.. when Tee goes, 'how was your shot?' im all.. 'it was ok' lol.. *sigh* it didnt go bad. i was very aware of what i was getting into.. no unexpected pain.. so.. it went ok. i planned to hurt and i did.. lol. yeah.. how about ive gone and done it for everyone.. so now you dont have to. im such a dork...
ok.. had to share that.. i gotta take pics soon.. im 5 months on T already.. woot woot...LoL
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Raymond
Friday, January 9, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
complacency? /shrug
welcome to 2009 eh?
im.. almost forcing myself to write this. i havent been feeling very up to.. anything. ive gone and lost all my steam. *sigh* not that things are bad, cause they arent. i just dont feel very.. inspired. hrm.. ive felt this before. not really sure what im supposed to do about it though.
ive been "fixing" lately. jacking off a lot. eating a lot of sugar...lol ok.. cookies. drinking a lot of coke. its actually been keeping my mind off of smoking cigarettes. but really should we be playing the lesser of two evils game..again?
the strange part about all of this is.. im actually feeling ok. im generally productive at work, ive been going to more meetings, ive been doing my step work, ive been talking through things with Tee when necessary... /shrug .. maybe im mistaken in my feeling of i should be doing something...?
shaved today - had a bit of a mustache there..very little chin hair growth...LOL.. oh! dude! lol.. sorry. just realized.. im passing a pretty good percent of the time these days. what am i...5 months on T... good stuff! ive even been referred to as male at work - which i think is the coolest thing ever. i wont correct the man.. he seems to know what he's talkin about! ;)
i guess thats all i got really.
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im.. almost forcing myself to write this. i havent been feeling very up to.. anything. ive gone and lost all my steam. *sigh* not that things are bad, cause they arent. i just dont feel very.. inspired. hrm.. ive felt this before. not really sure what im supposed to do about it though.
ive been "fixing" lately. jacking off a lot. eating a lot of sugar...lol ok.. cookies. drinking a lot of coke. its actually been keeping my mind off of smoking cigarettes. but really should we be playing the lesser of two evils game..again?
the strange part about all of this is.. im actually feeling ok. im generally productive at work, ive been going to more meetings, ive been doing my step work, ive been talking through things with Tee when necessary... /shrug .. maybe im mistaken in my feeling of i should be doing something...?
shaved today - had a bit of a mustache there..very little chin hair growth...LOL.. oh! dude! lol.. sorry. just realized.. im passing a pretty good percent of the time these days. what am i...5 months on T... good stuff! ive even been referred to as male at work - which i think is the coolest thing ever. i wont correct the man.. he seems to know what he's talkin about! ;)
i guess thats all i got really.
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