sometimes you win, sometimes you lose...

but apparently thats the name of the game.

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when youve heard over and over again time after time "cant keep you, cant keep you, cant keep you" and you finally dont hear it anymore.. but instead picture vividly emotions long long away that feel just like today you can only believe.. you have arrived.
and not in the sense that everythings altogether or everything is perfect or that things will never change but.. in that way that the Spirit is right and the Love is real and the Mind can finally handle it all.
somewhere beautiful and somewhere bright, Gods line of sight pointing right down upon you.. anointing running in, down, around, and through everything.. thoughts, feelings, realities one to the other to the other like clockwork.. right on time, though not on mine the.. waiting, wanting, jonesing, grasping, hoping replaced by.. right now, in this moment, enjoying, loving.
ends of days become beginnings of dreams discussed even while awake finally.. not-so-afraid of the road that im taking and.. though everything is just how it seems theres bystanders wishing it were all just a dream but the.. passionate purity traveling between dampens out fireblazing storms foreseen.
the calm is not just one that precedes
but a foreshadowing of what exactly life can be
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Ive been inspired to write again... and its a beautiful thing. I struggle only with where I can share my writing since I enjoy it so much. but its still so personal to me.. and maybe to some other people. Its true insight to whats going on inside me at any given time if Im so inspired to get it onto a computer screen, website, or piece of paper. T used to say that reading my blog was the only way she could get to know me.. I venture to believe that its because of the expression in my writing. The act of taking what Im feeling and filtering it out through precarious, though off the top of my head, word choice that leaves my emotions, my opinions.. my care, my worry, my love, and my hurt..all out in the open so not only can I look at it and attempt to make sense of it.. but that maybe someone else can too. I often wonder what other people get when they read my writing. Ive been fortunate enough to have met someone that can feel me and feel what I mean when I speak. Its truly a gift and Im grateful for it.
...haha.. yes, Im editing...
there are somethings we are afraid that the world wont be ready for. ive experienced over the past couple of months that those are usually things that we are simply afraid to tell the world..projecting possible reactions from the world instead of allowing the world to deal with it when it comes. seeking and following the advice of others we tend to shy away from expressing reality.. even of our very selves! in order to avoid the possibilities.. while simply delaying the inevitable. funnily enough.. the inevitable can wait as long as you can avoid it.. haha.. because ooh one day it will come... generally whether we like it or not.
I speak generally because this applies to many topics.. even applies to at least two topics that I have personally experienced... one of which Im experiencing right now. But thank God for the Spirit of God that lives in me.. because as long as I continue to listen and to follow direction, there will never be anything that I cannot accomplish.
"What would you do if you knew you could not fail?"
hrm.. lol.. yeah.. think about THAT for a little while. it gets my head spinning a little bit everytime I think about it.. I Love It!

sometimes you win, sometimes you lose... and sometimes you get to do both at the same time.

-Raymond III