ive gone and cut it all off yo...but its ok...i think i feel.. better. i did a vlog a little about it too on youtube.. its crazy. i didnt think id cut it this soon, but its all gone. i havent told anyone that hasnt seen it.. besides my moms (both of them). my dad saw me today and all he said was 'i thought Chill was going to be the only bald one' (my dog.. whose hair i still havent gotten cut btw). ive kept my hair of course. cant go just throwing your locs away ya know? ive still got to mail Twee away to her rightful owner.. lol. she was the loc right up front that fell in my face constantly from birth. belongs to my best guy from college.i look like.. just some guy these days.. thats pretty rad. its only been what.. 9 months and 3 weeks since i started hrt.. friggin amazing! (Peter Griffin style)
HAD to write a little about this and post a couple pics. there will be more to come.. after all... i FINALLY really reallly dig how i look. and not ONLY cause other people dig it.. but cause I dig it too. And that is a wonderful thing.LoL.. my sister saw this picture and was like 'you think you sexy' .. i was like.. not sexy exactly, but i DO think i look good. LoL.. i got it honest.. my mom's that way.
love it!
changes:
-im growing a bit of a "beard" - or rather the hairs under my chin that are long enough for me to pull on. this is cool..plus ive got the shadow of where the hair will grow. ive gotta start shaving again and im sure itll come in.
-its become easier to get the manboobs to "go away" for longer periods of time without having to adjust and reassess the situation
-apparently using an stp is not like riding a bike.. my left hand has totally forgotten how to get this done quickly and efficiently so even though I got my stp built this weekend..i havent used a urinal again yet. *grumble grumble* lol
-i realize that i could walk around like a flaming queen and with this haircut i probably would still be called 'he'.. at least by anyone who wasnt gay.. cause clearly when gay males think youre gay its ok to call you "she," "girl," and "Miss Honey." Lol... sorry, inside joke with the wife. (i think she'll appreciate it *wink*)
-i have muscle spasms sometimes in my legs that can be quite painful. ..i should probably drink more water and stretch more often. ...some advice prettyboicris gave me once that i just havent done.. and sadly, im JUST realizing.
-ive grown a lot.. neck size, muscles, etc.. and i never took measurements. i dont know that im extremely bothered by this. i mean, at least i have a few pictures. but i see now what my Danny meant when he said that i should take a lot of pictures and measurements. hes much better at tracking this stuff that ive been. i still havent even gotten a tape measure...
ok.. i should be working.. ive been extremely distractable lately...
later...
-Ray
